I won't dwell on the subject too much because I'm sure no one wants to hear it - but the end result of what was going on in my last journal was that I moved away and 'said bf' intends to move here with me towards the end of the year. Sweet? Yes. I'm happy

I'm doing a 4-year long course in Professional Writing and at the end I'll get an Advanced Diploma for it. It's going to take ages but it's worth it. I know that being an Author is what I want so I'll do whatever I have to to get it.
It means I'm going to have much less time for drawing and I apologise. I'll be taking down my manga STEALME, and needless to say that the plans for my other manga, Mr SHINE may not happen at all. I'm really sorry but I have to concentrate on my studies. If I find time I will definitely do Mr Shine but StealMe will be discontinued. -Better now than later on down the track when it seems more interesting.

Thanks, it was just a short note
luv Michelle

Sorry I've been absent but my boyfriend broke up with me a month and a half ago and I wasn't able to get into the mood for much of anything. It's probably made it worse that I chose to have my first serious relationship when I was 20... :/

But yeah then he turned around and came back to me last week, saying he couldn't stop thinking about me, so I'm happy for now.
He said he was stupid for ever dumping me in the first place and he really missed me.

But wait! Da-duh-DUH... I'm moving interstate in January so I only have just over a month of time left to spend with him! :'( I want so bad for us to stay together (>>athetic<< but I doubt he'll be willing to follow me, despite him being ready to move places anyway because his lease ran out, and him not being happy where he's working and thinking that it's too cold where we are now...

Why does everything have to be so complicated??
I'm worried that staying with him will make it harder for when it comes to me moving houses AND moving on.

Ahhhh. Life. =___=

R.I.P My doggie Jemmie (Jessie) – 24/09/08
It was his time, I know it was. If we hadn’t put him to sleep he would’ve died in the night and it was best this way. When I saw him his eyes were already dead.
Jessie couldn’t walk. He’d collapsed on the bark chips down the back and off to the right of the back garden. When Mam and I got home she went and sat with him when he wouldn’t eat food or drink any water. My brother and I watched from the kitchen window and I cried. –I did go out and pet him but it was hard to know whether he knew who I was and the things that Mam was saying was only making me cry more. She phoned Dad to come home and told him it was the day and she broke down on the phone to him.
By the time Dad got home it was dark and 7 o’clock and the rest of us were all sat outside with him. Dad came through the house to the back and Mam told Jessie that Dad was there. –That we were all there with him. He hadn’t gotten up all day and he hadn’t tried to, which was for the best because maggots were eating him from the inside and had moved to his right hind leg. My brother thought that he was wagging his tail but he hadn’t done that in months and I knew it was probably only twitching when he was in pain. He barely kept his head up; he just rested it in Mam’s lap. Dad approached and bent down next to Mam. He patted Jemmie on the head and bowed his head. It was one of the very few times I’ve seen him really cry.
Dad phoned to warn the vet we were coming. We wrapped him up in a towel and blanket and put him in the back seat and we all went with him. He used to love car rides, but this time he just looked sad. It was a family affair. We carried him in and Dad sat down with him on a couch in a small room with animal posters and a TV. I sat next to him. I kept crying when a man and a woman came in to explain what they could do and what was going to happen. Then they took him out to put a catheter in and to prepare the drugs.
They brought him back and placed him in Dad’s arms. It had more effect to see him holding his head up because when they had taken him out he’d seemed pretty lifeless already. It hurt to see the injection and to know what they were going to do with it. They had explained it and so they put the drug in slowly to give us a chance to say goodbye. We were all patting him as his head gradually dropped down onto Dad’s arm. My brother finally broke down and started crying. Mam spoke to Jessie the whole while whereas I had said everything a couple of days earlier and could only cry then. If Jemmie heard anything or felt anything we said to him that day despite his hearing; then the last things he heard was that he was ‘the bestest dog ever’ and Mam said, ‘you’ll come back to visit us won’t you?’ The Vet took out the catheter and told us he was gone and I cried worse than ever. They left us with him for a few minutes and Dad cried more and rested his head against Jessie’s. The male Vet came back in and checked that his heart had stopped and it just seemed so final. It was so hard to believe that Jemmie wasn’t there anymore. He couldn’t be. He was always there. –He had been for the last 16 years of my life. I had wanted so badly to rip out the catheter as they were administering the injection that was going to put him to sleep and stop his heart but I couldn’t. He wasn’t going to last much longer without it and he would have been in pain. I knew that. But I kept remembering how he was before and thinking there must have been some other way. I don’t understand why dogs have to die so much sooner than we do. It’s cruel.
Mam and Dad took off his collar and gave it to me. I wanted to keep it, just to have something that he wore; that still smelled like him. When they took his body out his head flopped over the woman’s arm in such an obviously dead way and it seemed so unbelievable. It just never seems like you’ll have to see them that way. The drive back home in the car was pretty quiet. I went to bed early and then woke up again at half two in the morning. Mam woke up too shortly after and we cried again. We sat on the carpet next to the heater and talked about it. I also broke down in the shower and then ended up sat on the side of my bed crying. Death is always something that’s hard to come to grips with.
Jessie unfortunately didn’t make it to his 17th birthday. Mam lit a candle for him today and she says she’ll light a bigger one on his birthday, the 1st of December. My other dog Delta took a while to eat her dinner the night Jessie died. And when she was sat next to us and him, she didn’t once try to eat his dinner that lay untouched beside him, despite how much of a pig she usually is. When we got home Mam and Dad sat out with her for a bit and when everyone went to bed she wouldn’t go and sleep in hers. She sat out beside the backdoor. I still don’t know how much she knows. Does she know he’s gone forever?

RIP Jemmie. Love you always. We know there was no other way and we hope you are happy where you are my most beautiful Doggie. Things won’t be the same without you. We will all miss you but at least we know we made sure you had a reasonable life. You won’t be in pain anymore and I’m sorry we made you go on for so long as you were. Please understand that we didn’t want to lose you. Mam wants you to come back and visit us, in case you didn’t hear her say it but I’m sure you did because I hope you heard everything that we said to you at the time. You knew we were there with you. All of us. I know I don’t believe in stuff like people or anyone coming back, but I’m sure you will. Because you are my doggie Jemmie and you would miss us if you didn’t. You were the bestest dog ever. I miss you already! But sleep as long as you like honey. We’ll be waiting for you.
Bask in the sun Jem. X O X O X O X O X O X O X O

gawd I'm hoping that my motivation as of late is a sign that I'm getting back onto the drawing scene... oh please, I'm sure crossing my fingers that it is

I'm not actually a really artistic person so I guess that's the reason. I have a theory that people don't need to be artistic or have a talent to be able to draw.
I think it's just practice. plain and simple.
As long as you have a good eye for detail and you really enjoy drawing. I dunno, it's the only thing that explains 'me' wth?

Anyhoo this is the list I'll be trying to eat my way through over the next couple of months or so... -I'll be trying to knock them off according to urgency but I'm not sure it'll work out that way lol

*Art trades
sorry =w= I know I've kept you waiting, truth be told; I've been delaying it because I'm still not entirely sure how to interpret your character in my own style while keeping him true to your design >_>
...waiting till we're both less busy ^^

*Art collaborations
another person I have kept hanging, soz I have done the sketch I said I'd need to do of my character. If you still have the time to do the collab I'll be happy to submit it

*Gift art
I will get onto this as soon as I am free to do so, for I am doing it for my own pleasure ^.^

*STEALME (goodGOD)
for the 255 people or so that have been waiting on me for the past SIX MONTHS =____= I don't mind saying that's been stressing me out

*Mr. Shine
another manga-in-the-making. purely to help me vent my anger issues I'll be doing a promo picture soon

thankyuuuu's to my watchers and people who have faved my work It is much appreciated

-Misheru Ritsuko

Yes... I'm wondering if I should do a couple of art trades...
but-but-but.... it would have to be someone whose art I actually liked of course I guess I've just been bored lately 'art-wise'. An art trade is just my sad attempt at trying to force myself into drawing... :/

I thought I'd get my next manga page done within a week of that last update but I got distracted O.o Yeah, I have a real problem with that... >.> It's only a quick page too. Ahhh... I'll really have to push myself and get that done like a good mangaka.
-I have an excuse--promise. My bf Tyson has been keeping me away from the computer so it's not my fault...! ... ... not entirely >.> I've seen him everyday since the day I met him. Weird.

Anyway, I'm also contemplating doing a fanart of 's characters. Not sure which yet but we'll see. I knew I was going to at some stage but since I chatted to her on msn it's probably going to be all the sooner. I realised not just her artwork is cool; she is herself!

Oh and I need to thank for buying me a 3 month subscription here on dA... even if it was just because you wanted my attention :-P

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